searching for dreams

I, me, myself. How would I lead myself through this life? What will I become later when I old? Do I give myself choices to live in certain way- the way I want to?
So these questions helps me to wonder, and reflect back to the last memory I had when I have a dream. Beyond many wildest dreams that others have thought for themselves, I had the urge to find one. It was not easy. In my young age that time, it seems impossible, but I actually did. What is it? -forgot for a while- yeah, I want to be a doctor who, obviously- treats patient and that's it.

Now-- when I come to my youth age, I have lost my way from that track- being a doctor.
Worst, I have lost my spirit and the inspiration in life. What am I living for? Yeah I know the main purpose is to become a khalifah- yet, something's missing. I felt I have gone a big portion of myself from before. I have been wondering- and my soul is craving for something. Maybe, in a way, it's called dreams. I have felt that I need to find the missing portion by searching what I want to do and to foster in my life.

Thus, to me, I think its very crucial to find the things that we want to achieve and let the dreams become the wings to fly and set our soul free. Secondly, so that I would be able to be who I want to be, without any hesitation.

Let's make prayers so that Allah can guide us towards the path that we want to go, and help us through it without difficulties. Ameen ya Allah.. :-)